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Sunday, January 29, 2006
Sunday 22/1/06
How would u feel if u broke a new record? happy? proud? well, i broke a record but nt with a least bit of happiness.
ok, i broke a stupid record for being in the hospital for 12 solid hours - 12pm to 12am. i went to the hospital with the initial thought of just visiting my grandma. she need to do a scanning that day, so we accompanied her till her scanning finishes. the doctor told us that the report will be out in an hour's time. thus we waited...praying that it's not something serious.
report finally arrived. bad. operation to be done immediately. major operation.
she was wheeled in to the operation room around 7.30pm. of course we waited. roaming around the hospital, hoping everything is fine. doctor called at around 11plus. operation done. considered successful. but there's still alot of factors to watch out for and she's not stable yet. but i was relieved at the moment i heard the operation was successful.
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i went back to the hospital the next day to visit her. i worry again. the sight of my grandma breaks my heart. she is so so so so damn weak. for a person who had been so healthy all along suddenly fall sick till like that! her face and expression can really make me cry.
she's scared. she told us she's scared. she afraid of being alone...esp at night. so the family took turns to stay with her at night till daybreaks. i stayed overnight with my cousin on tuesday night. oh my, the stupid nurse chase us out of the ward everytime. oh, forget to tell, she's in the high dependenecy ward.
that was a horrible night. we did not manage to sleep well. so so tired. next day still got school in the morning. that explains me slpin during econs tutorial and get scolded by lusia.
days go by...she gets better. i can see the improvement. i'm happy
new year's eve, i went to the hospital in the morning to visit her before returning home to have reunion dinner with the other side of my family. she was fine that day. she can eat. she can sit up. i fed her. she looks fine.
i went home, had my reunion dinner and the phone rang. omg, nuttin good again. her condition suddenly worsen just like that!! and if u notice, it's a saturday again. i kindof dislike saturdays now. it always bring me bad news. ok, after the phone call, we sped to the hospital again.
in the morning she looks so so fine. at night, it's totally different. her eyes are different. it kind of scares me. she looks weaker. her heartbeat is very fast. her breathing is irregular. i'm worried once more. the doctor told us that they suspect she'd got lung infection. she might be send to the icu.
i'm worried. damn worried. fucking worried. i cant take any more blows. i'm already drained, physically and mentally. i really hope she'll be fine. i really do.
i cant help but to think of the things that happened during my uncle's funeral. all because of a fucking woman's stinkful mouth. it leads to all the sufferings my grandma is goin through now. dun let me ever see her again!!! i'm seriously very pissed. i even quarrelled with my mother because of this. nono, i scolded my mother actually. for not concerning more for my grandma whn that fucking old woman is treating grandma like that!!! i really really hope i can curse her to death. ok, i'm a bad person.
now, whatever it is, i just hope for the recovery of my grandmother. firstly, get out of the high dependency ward and get transferred back to the normal ward. as this will mean that her condition is alr stablised. after that, get out of hospital, discharged! and rest well at home.
seriously, i'm scared. afraid that my greatest worry will come true. *slaps* i shall be optimistic
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this is an incident that happened to me that makes me so angry and not to trust doctors. (although i know there are still good doctors around in the world)
can u imagine getting yourself operated for constipation? well, i almost did.
i was young at that time. i cried badly for the pain in my stomach. thus i was sent to the hospital immediately. a doctor attended to me. a trainee doctor in fact. he checked on me and say i've got this watever illness it is called. and i need an operation immediately.
of course, my parents are worried. and my dad SIGNED the operation form. he had already signed it!!! lucky, he requested for a senior doctor to do the operation. other than that doctor, no one else can operate on me. tks to that, that senior doctor gave me a last checkup before wheeling me into the operation theatre. because, all i have is constipation, not the whatever illness.
when i learned about this incident when i grow up, i was so so angry that i wanna sue the trainee doctor. can u imagine if my dad hasnt requested for the senior doc? my stomach will be cut open because i've got constipation. how responsible can a hopsital get? how responsible can a doctor gets?
i sweared i'll srew that trainee doctor upside down inside out if i ever gets to see him. he's lucky anyway. my parents doesn't remr his name. if not, i'll make sure he never graduates to be a fucking stupid doctor.
ok, i'm really angry!
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